man...havent posted in a long time...

seems like everything is so busy...in my life that is...

now...i have some really great members whom i have the fortune to meet...

and i have some freaking test to study for... guess i'll go rot somewhere



i will convert this blog into a music blog, where i will feature the latest albums which i have already found. i shall not waste time featuring older albums, but will feature the new downloaded ones every now and then. hope all can come and read and find some music they like.

also, in view of the Mev incident, the shoutbox was removed to prevent flames. this was a preventive step taken in accordance to experience from the past. all is well now, as it should be.

the next album features should come in during the weekdays.

anyways, about personal life, i should be going to somewhere interesting tomorrow, and getting something that will bring my music-ing interest in percussions to the next level. cant wait!

this blog will also now feature some of Chikara's (Vogue_Ace's band) goings-on. it should be updated whenever there is news or some form of event. currently, Alfred Chong, our guitarist is having a "fun" time in NS, and Shino is doing his O Levels. Pearl is busy at work as usual, and Julian, possibly up to what hes always doing. me? i dont know...

thats all for now i think.



okay, much has happened since i last posted......

where should i start......

uh......lemme see.... went back to school a number of times throughout the vacation just cuz i had nothing to do, and in the meantime, Mev has reformed, and is revived... i hope this new stint can really bring the band to greater heights. much has happened to all of them, and i am sure they have been through some bitter ordeal through jcode, but i will come in to right some of the things, hopefully?

there was a fiasco with julian (band: chikara) the bassist. nearly thought i was gonna have to kick him, but turns out hes still loyal. i'll turn a blind eye to this incident cuz i just dont wanna cause much confusion, and for the benefit of maintaining good relations. hes gonna juggle 2 bands like me now... hope hes okay

there was one wednesday i think....i was supposed to head down to atsuki gl for the usual hare hare yukai practice, but turns out, my mood was playin me as usual. headed to william's place right after manga lessons ended. turns out, i had to use a lan cable to play lunia at his place! how silly... i quitted lunia anyways...

right then...lots of news about disasters lately...earthquakes, fires....all of these stuff claimed lives man... shame..... oh yea, need i mention, the Japanese pm resigned... and they are still launchin a shuttle to the moon? -_-

ah yep, just finished watching nodame cantabile not long ago.......neat show, romance comedy...kinda like my favourite. the characters in it are all like "smack outta the manga/anime"... the actors are good i guess...

now i am thinking of my new mandate towards music...... guess i will put my fullest attention to music, but in the meantime, still follow my academic pursuits seriously, or else it would start attractin' negative attention, which may cause me some inconveniences.....not good..... heh...

oh i forgot to mention tanghoon festival~ ate and had fun there...maybe the only stuff i liked was discussin' stuff with vectors and da jie... nothin much, mostly band matters and nodame cantabile cosplay matters.... turns out i'll have to do a tanioka sensei.... hope it turns out fine though.... cant imagine if it doesnt~!

ah application for japanese language course seems to be successful. i will be submitting the payment next week. lesson proper will start on the first week of school...i am beginning to wonder how it will turn out! a little excited yea...

got back my results too! turns out i got a satisfactory score... gpa 3.05....great... gotta work a little harder next sem i guess....... have to watch out when i can actually have time to fool around now.......... hate unwanted attention, which always turns out to be negative...

ah and theres this CCA recruitment drive thing happening again. this time i am thinking of applying for LOA to help man the booths. but am reconsidering...the modules i have seem a little tough and require my attention...

ah wells....thats life so far..... its like recounting everything i guess? all that i can remember......

regarding people around me...... mmm....... i'd say i am getting to know pearl a little more lately....strangely too...... pumkin is getting a little distant, yet always seems so close when we talk... finoa is aloof as usual...havent been hearing from her lately...

ah to those who tag at the tagboard....... WELCOME~

now i wonder what is gonna be my next blog skin........ i really like this skin actually.... and come to think of it, every post in recent months has always been about changing skins......maybe i'll put that off for a little while...

very good then...guess i have nothing more to say now...back to sgcafe and see what fun there is there (although it is really devoid of fun sometimes...)

to the new school semester... GANBATTE~~



ok, just finished a weekend of fun, and a whole week of exam stress thak made me feel like i am gona spit blood anytime.

anyways, electronics paper went extremely uneventfully okay... thought it was gonna be a killer, but was also hoping for it to be damn easy, yet all i got wa something normal...tch...

so after that darned paper...went to collect natsu matsuri tix, which were like a4??!?? i was like, omgwthbbq?!? anyway, was practicing with my sticks on my pillow every night so that i was ready for that jam session that day

went there, early, met everyone, nice turnout made me so ecstatic, think thats one of the reasons why i hit the drum kit so hard... but then again, guess it was a miracle that the sticks did not break this time o.O

lawl, and that morning, i was like chatting to Finoa while she was going to JAS, just to find out that you can only get tix at 5:30...lawl... and i was playing this game that Vectors gave me... sounds so stupid too...

so natsu matsuri was fun. went with a whole crowd, met SPLA people there, tried some of the food, went for that dance, and felt like lawl, cuz i was always thinking that i am wearing some bathrobe (which later on, i just made up my mind that it IS a bathrobe, period...dont wanna decide whether or not it is a bathrobe) o.O

sunday went like quite uneventfully? lawl? think i practically hated sundays... what with all those family time? lawl...i really hated family time...i just complied with my ma cuz i was sick and tired of argueing... nowadays, i just comply and keep outta trouble, doing whatever my mom wants so that i do not get an earful, cuz i am already sick and tired of it. things that they ban are things that i like, so if you take drumming/band activity into account, i guess, i have to d those stuff in secret till the time is right.

when i finish that darned 2 years of national servitude, i may consider jut leaving....get some work, leave my family behind. never return, maybe just communicate to my brother secretly, but otherwise i want to have no contact with them in the future... darned idiots... they dont know how much hell they are giving me emotionally... wait till i just walk out.

thankfully, i jut wanna do stuff to keep my mind of them. darned warning by my pops says that i cant go out much during the holidays. to hell wih that man, i mean, who wants to control your life like that?!? really hate it!

oh, and i am moving. gonna shift house real soon, to soewhere in YewTee... damn, i just nodded my head when they approached me on the subject on moving house. man, i just dont wanna move... ah but whatever, just that few more years, nd i wont need to think about it anymore...

right now, i just wanna spend some time doing stuff that i like...wednesday is manga class, and pearl says she is taking the day off to visit us! kewl! and we even decided to use Moberly block to jam on that day, before manga class...hope it all goes well.... i really cant stand staying at home all day...

cant wait for school to start. i wanna be back at where i really have a life. right now, i am gonna be forced into some slave labour, by being asked to help pack stuff cuz we are moving house at the end of september... darn it...

hurry up and gimme my timetable! i wanna get back to school ASAP! hope i can have those kind of 3 hour break lawl, then i can head to visit places...



AR! looks like i have not updated this in a long time...hehe...time i did some major updating XP

okay...where should i start man... hmm.......... backtrack to all the way to when i had to hands over my sennhiser to her? hmm...yea handed it to her for safe keeping, after i got a dressing down on how emo i actually look lmao...which acherly makes sense, maybe?

so...i recently have become active in cosplay section of sgcafe huh.......jump ship...now don noe if i am too late to even join lols... currently seeing if i can do Get Backers for EOY07 and Bleach for CosFest 08......application status? pending!!!!!!

as for the club matters...lemme see....have been going outta dinner with them quite a few times lately...hehe...... esp when they have so much to tell you haha... once you are done eating...all of us sit together and start talking and sharing everything they have been through in the past... now thats what i call socializing hehehehe

plenty of work to do now...and i had a fiasco at tests too!!! lab tests? Mechanics Final Paper? AutoCAD paper? all a breeze...thanks to lecturer help...tho i feel that luck may not be on my side for the next two papers...nwo i just hope they can be finished quickly...i dont have time for all those kinda mindboggling stuff...i wanna go jam and have fun at natsu matsuri~~~~ i just cant wait!!!

recently went back to SOFT and had a mild presence there for a while...now i am still considering if i wanna go to the SOFT drummer's meetup...but then again...i think i might as well just have given it a miss...cuz i really need to purchase those yuukatas for natsu matsuri~

plenty of stuff to expect...during the long vacation...guess i am gonna have to have a hand at manga...full force!!! and also start to source for parts to do cosplay hehe~

guess its time to make a move...i'll update some more tomorrow...man...i am starting to know more people suddenly hehe... ah well...ja-ne~ kupo~



yeap, back again to update!

bought the last HP book!!! wee~~~ reading it now...

manga class was a breezzeee.....bought the wrong pen...spill ink,watch the people there curse me for the lazy man guides... NO WAY I AM GONNA GIVE UP THE LAZY MAN GUIDE!

then tomorrow have school late...kept all my fren's papers so i can refer...lol...study before i hand to them! XP

now i considering some stuff...maybe i may wanna stay up late and read HP till i rot and die...and then tmr morning read some more then go to school see GPT for autocad...

shld i visit the clubhouse? hell yes! if lesson end early la...

oh, exam coming soon, and i am trying to learn things at that fast rate again! that way, wont fail! i hope?

ah well, tats all i can update....ja-ne!



okay, i havent been updating of late...been really busy...

where should i start...mmm...sth random perhaps? cosfest 07 was great! lots of pictures to take...though some of the cosplayers did not made th mark.....

got to know syuuko there....shes been quite sth in our club forum of late...i think the people there are still trying to guess who she is...maybe some alreay know, ah i don know... HEH

almost immediately after i got to know her...then i got asked and invited to cosplay prince of tennis for EOY2007! XP that was certainly fast XP, i really wonder how its gonna be like.....

then there is manga classes, which are now held at T2011......did not have much problems with that place, or getting there, but i sometimes cant help but feel a little....fidgety....dont really feel good there...anyways, that lesson on wednesday was great...laughed over the top...had not laughed like that in quite a while XP...william wore skates that day, fell down the hill, collided with a car, used up his luck in that stunt, and got slapped with a $50 fine for "playing rollerblade in concourse area"...the charge? "non-compliance with rules" when evidently there is no sign that says so....zzz.......

gonna be super busy tomorrow!!! XP deciding whether i should play LAN at the clubhouse or what XP....oh, and i best get another shirt for tmr XP

heh, when i wanna post...looks like i will write lots when i have sth to think of...XP...lots to expect, XP

oh, and i just got 70 for a silly quiz in class today...XD....shd do some good to my grades... speaking of which...i best go do some work real soon...otherwise i might not make it tmr XP



havent blogged in a long time again!!!

okay, schools back. full force! and manga class ain' full force yet....pity...

anyways, theres gonna be cosfest this saturday, and have to be busy taking pics!!!

clubhouse is always full of people man...all i have to do is pop by there! and they LAN game there too! man, i am so gonna bring my laptop there whenever i can...

ah well, workloads comming in the form of tests and such....no time to study cuz the mood ain there....i am still waiting for it to come, and meanwhile, i have to work on photoshop and GP5.....still in the learning phase.....XP

ah well...i'll sign off for now....nothing to fill in lately, maybe i will post some pix of cosfest!



okie here goes again!

joyous. thats what i would say. cant really speak much of my mind. one feels like skipping around and watching the skies as the clouds forms many mystical shapes.

ah the sun...it shines like a blaze....clouds are mounting high out there... but i am stuck in a musty room, doing papers all day long....

i wanna go barbecue! XD

eek, deviated to ellegarden...LOL

nvm, i try again tmr



okie here goes...

i think i am going mad...i keep on seeing them again...i thought of the same incident last year but it looks like they are serious this time round......i am writing all these down now because i fear that i might leave and no one knows how i left...

i have been living in constant fear for a while already. and fear was not in my dictionary......until quite recently, when they start to hint to me that the time is coming.....

i am quite certain that that time is coming, so i have decided to do stuff that i like, quickly. for i dont know how much time i have left with me. even a month ago, when the lines started to appear on my palms, and having constant dreams that make no sense, of me dying...various ways......

just dont let it end when i havent done all that i wanna do...why cant take away all that is material to me. all those material things. they can just take it all they want. but it seems like this is it. i might have to go real soon..........i dont know when, i dont know how long i have left, but i had better spend my days happy. hopefully. a miracle happens, i can completely forget about all these, and keep my mind happy, then perhaps i can live on. but at what costs......

sometimes i just want it to end right now, but at times, i just fight to survive, begging with time to give me more time. i have so much to tell...so much to do, so much to make up to.....

imagine thinking of 5 to 6 things at any one instant. not being able to sleep at night. having ailments when you know you are definitely not going to get them. saying things that you dont mean, doing things when you cant control your actions. repeating what the voice in your head says......

please let it end.......

i am going to chronicle all these, in the hope that those who are going through this will find solace, knowing that they are not alone. i want them to know that they have to find those who really care for them now, and cherish them. i dont know how long i am going to remain sane, but as long as i can think with my own two feet, none of those things are gonna kill me...even if it means giving up the third eye......i so want to close the third eye, so i will never be able to see them...

i feel pain...



eh long time never blog XD

okie where to start...ever since i left my band, i think i have been studying for some silly class tests and have been making some silly mistakes in them too...i just hope that when i get back my papers, i dont get anything....silly...hehehe... XD

anyways, that week passed without much incident, unless you count me cancelling the jam room, which took quite a while, because apparently they have this policy where they do not refund so easily XD...anyways,learnt how to play pool on that day...thanks boon, thanks fallout boy! arigatou gozaimas! XD

anyways the weekend ended without much incident too, then came the camp, and i brought my silly tiger racket along for no apparent reason XD........then had lots of silly stuff, but it was fun. especially twster. both nights i did not sleep much, esp the second night, where i practically did not sleep at all, and i think i played mahjong throughout...

then comes after the camp. this silly incident involving my neighbour....we had an agreement, and since i was heading over to me cousin's place to stay over until sunday and fix some stuff at his place, i rekon i could lend him my phone and i did...

in the end, people like ant were complaining to me about stuff like why i wanna head over to their house and beat them up, and why kelly chua would ring me up asking me to shut up about asking her out, and why would nelson say something about wanting to kick my ass...hmm...

and yes, saw, william,kirk, ashy, jh, des, lin....i was like omg...u called them all, and u used so many of my sms for no reason......so i snatched back my phone on sunday 1pm and scolded him till his undies dropped. man he really misplaced my trust XD....

so fumed with him.......aron u see this you better go rethink ur action man.

now i wonder what he wrote to ash, and some of the girls...their names are on my call list, and i fear he may have said hurtful things...wednesday evening i shld have realized it. i took my phone back awhile cuz i need to go to sunshine plaza meet club members and say hi to dearest kirk and smile to ashy. then i see names in my call list, which i noe i never call. but i never take notice. think next time, NO LENDING PERSONAL ITEM TO OTHERS!

me have enough...now i am gonna wait for my bro to mod some game and lemme try it XD...now i wanna make some phone calls and see if i can get through...

think i might have to sit down and start to mug very soon...



gone are the days when music and jamming sessions will burden me hehe...after the gig, i am officially out! wee~~~

now i spend my days in bliss and knowing that i have my personal problems to solve, ties to mend, and people to speak to again...

hmm...another busy week coming up! with tests!



been a while since i blogged again...lol.......

review what i did? yup, e-learning week...went through that week, without having to go back to school, and i forgot all about atudying...then on wednesday, still went back for manga classes, lols.....the day before went back for mechanics 1 makeup, but those blokes there were just gaming and net surfing...so much for a make up class...zzz....camp was cancelled because of some unforseen circumstances, now its in the first week of the holidays lols.......now i cant go to my class chalet...so long, 4E1'06...

then on friday, went ahead with practice being nervous, worried, and having a headache....damn.....then next day, i catch a fever...now i am trying to recover from this mess, and hopefully, i can hit the books tomorrow...i am still recovering now, but i think i would do better tomorrow lol....when i can pick up my notes and start reading them...making very sure i know them all...... the consequences for failing tests can be real bad...may have to skip manga classes just to go for remedials, which i dowant to go...

ah street fest is coming up soon...this saturday, and looks like i made up an excuse to be able to go to street fest. there will be my last stand, before i retire from the music scene, no jrock scene for a while, so that i can concentrate on stuff regarding my life...sigh............

all i can think of now is what i can do after this gig..........spend more time on my personal stuff? perhaps? being out of the music scene does has its downsides...but i guess whenever my hands are itchy, a jamming session can be arranged...hehehehe.....

ah, long break coming to an end real soon.....2 more weeks and it will be my holidays...the first one too....hope i can use that time to do some follow up heheh...

now what to do.....call her...or game away...hmm...... i cant be wasting away in front of my lappy all day i guess.......... sigh...



ahh!!! i havent posted in a long time again...lol....

so the e-learning week comes into effect, and right now,all i can do is wait for the servers and websites to be less laggy so that i can do my work lol!

nothing much i can expect, and nothing much i can write on this blog lol, maybe except the fact that i have some gig to look foward to heh...

now to rest up, and gather intel before i begin anything lols.



had quite a week lols......anyways, i also have not blogged in some time lols......also time to check te tagboard lols...

anyways, week 4 was tough going! had manga class that proves that i SUCK! haha, and also had hell of a time on practices on friday...what a sensation lols...

anyways, here comes week 5, and lols yea, i have yet to do my manga class homework, and also to learn the hiragana list by heart lols...so far only learn up to K (meaning i only learnt 10 characters oni lol) better go learn some more......

theres gonna be makeup classes (not that i am going to learn how to do makeup lols, but i need to attend them lols. theres one for IDEA tomorrow (date:14/5/07), and lucky me, i finished the homework lols...theres gonna be some kind of graded presentation lols....i wanna see what the others have done lols......

spamming the forum has become a hobby lols. and i think i just hit the 666 marker, saying "the BEAST"...i am surprised the baka seniors know about that number meaning the beast and not the devil directly. kewl, at least they did do some readup lols...

now to wait for pumkin to come online so i can chat with her lols.......so much to do next week!

busy busy busy! kweh!



lols, i havent blogged in a while again..

gonna be some kind of a week, i mean the coming week. booking studio on tuesday, manga class on wednesday, nothing(sadly) on thursday, lessons for pumkin and practice on fridays!

now i jus need to figure out the last few niche areas in Squall...and figure out the new rudiments to teach pumkin...hmm...*think hard*

another new project up, Pirates of the Caribbean(sic) in Manga! think its gonna take a while though, i have not done human portraits in a long time lols.

and i best sign off for now, i wanna go learn hiragana (for starters) from scratch! zzz

vanished



hmm...was reviewing my blog,reading past entries, i think i had quite some sec 4 days...

o levels were hard i admit, but those days are long gone, and i wont wanna go back to those days.. now then i remember that i had a fling with some girls, but guess it was my childish nature, then when i wanted to stop it all, people make fun of me. guess i shld not have been so naive.

ah, news of getting my o lvl cert has come. i think i am just gonna collect it and not going back to that place anymore.i hate it, even when i am a alumni, they treat me like trash, and i went there make myself malu only.......zzzzzz

somehow, i feel that poly life is so much more fun, and there are so much things to expect, and there is so many more friends than in secondary school...hope to make a few permanent friends.. notlike my secondary school friends, what,class outing? class blog? i see no involvement sigh... think i am just gonna leave that as a bad chapter in life thats all...

i feel so...clear now, like what i have done in the past were but a freakshow, that even i myself laugh at, since i was such a fool back then...but now, i just wanna go on with life, hope to see more, instead of just sticking with that mudhole u call tanglin sec....never gonna go back there again, after my certificate is collected...

now, to go around and source for ideas, and possibly to continue on the script...otherwise, i might just have to study again, otherwise i am backdated! maybe tonight?

hope to chat with pumkin!



yea man, i upgraded this blog! now has a new look......wonder when will be the next time i go change the skin, and have a revamp again...hmm...

man, tomorrow is the day i start manga lessons! omfg...dunno whats it gonna be like, and i still dont know where is the classroom,so i suggested in the forums that we just meet at the clubhouse and let a senior lead us there lol! ah nvms,i think i will ask pumkin to come alongand see how it goes,so i do not get lost so easily...

have not been using my desktop lol, i have been using my laptop like most of the time nowadays...also i think its time i posted some images on this blog...ah, i am just too lazy to take a screenshot and post it on photobucket...to much hassle... >.<

ah, the concepts are going fine, except that i am running low on ideas now, and i feel like continuing the script.i guess all i can do now is to see what pumkin has done so far, so that i can have a look at what is her impression of Ecnelis.....for me, i have drew my version of Karas, and have only drew the face and hair of Ash'l.....just having lack of ideas i guess, so i think i might have to pop by deiantart and see what i can pick up from there again...but then again, their standards are pretty high...zzz...

like always, i think i am gonna catch some sleep...whats more today is labour day zzz... read from some source, that China has 1 week holiday when it came to labour day...kewl...

sigh...time to sleep....zzz........wish i can always be there for you pumkin...zzz...(sleeptalking)



the manga is going smoothly, although gonna be slow... just finished one character design and am planning more, maybe by tonight, and possibly by tomorrow....

anyways, some unwanted person went to tag on my tagboard. i deleted the post. i will be tracking down that person of course and warn that person in his/her blog that s/he should not waste time on my blog.

also, i think there is gonna be a facelift again! wee! change codes! this time, i am gonna learn and make one custom skin for my blog, not gonna rely on blogskins lol, all the time i rely on that webbie and i dont get anything that i like, i shld make my own, that way, i will get something i like wee~~~ now to find a webbie that has a tutorial

before that...VENDETTA VENDETTA!!! *hehs*

SPLA rawks to the core....expect to see changes to blog anytime today or tomorrow... dinosaurs are welcome to read my blog!



LOL!

today is the meeting, and i actually had the plans for bryan koh's story written out into a story... man thats like freaking fast!

but gotta subject to lots of adventures...like planned...fight fight fight!!! woohoo!

anyways, dunno if my dad gonna allow me to join biking...whatever...lol...

hehs...better start character designs! woohooh!



yea you bet.

finished reading some stuff...think i will leave my IDEA homework till this weekend. other than that, think i am gonna have some sleepy time in oral/communication class...zzz...

anyways, meeting for SPLA has been changed from a non-existant MLT2 to moberly cafe...hehs.... so much for the glitched heh....

ah...gotta go, need to jump awake early...lol...

nowadays i dont seem to have much to say hmm...lol... *bleh*

KWEH!



yea man! bring it on

next week's events: AGM 2007 SPLA, bring lappy to school all day, and lol, staying back at clubhouse, and jamming possibly?

anyways, i think every week is gonna be interesting lol...

now to find boon's msn lol, cant contact him haix



life at sp sure is going from more fun to even more fun lol...

wonder whats up next. read forums and they say SPLA is having a camp...wee! sure i will join haha... still a freshie!

getting sucks at manga i realize...no more, "flow" like last time le, but even last time oso not so impressive lol...... hope to get way better...

juggle 2 CCA gonna be difficult, i feel like purposely screwing up the jazz band and then concentrate on SPLA haha. that way i will have more time to concentrate on reading up and study haix...

if i hav a chance, i gotta post some pics of campus woohoo!



read ex-classmate's blog and so surprise she turn me down lmao, later b4 i slept, i also thought she was not for me, last timemight be a fling (no offence yea) but i think it shld b over...... think of myself as unpredictable now, i cant make decisions correctly...first i think that way, then i think another way....to kelly chua hor, i think u r right, u r not my type, i need more style you know, either you are just so colorful, or else, my color is too good for you to withstand...lol,just joking la, eeryone is olorful, guess everyone has his personality yea!

kays, this night, i gonna pen down some thoughts regarding......eh...something that will get the vatican running at me,something that will get the dalai lama stepping down, something that will have all muslims trying to kill me, or all jews comdemning me,or other cults comdemning me to damnation...yep, its bout religion and philosophy...if i dun pen it down, think ima gonna ferget it lol

okay here goes.... read davinci code and it might help u a little...... so assuming that there is such a thing as judgement day, that this is the dharma ending period (for buddhists, think we have some 9000years left yea, buddha at least gave us a rough estimate) not sure with other religion and cult but, well...look at us... science is going nowhere but up, and it will improve expontially, and i mean it. give another decade and we will live in a diffeent society, with our laws changed to suit that very purpose.

so why last Kalpa? or judgement day? guess judgement day just simply means, the end of god, not the end of days. the end of all religion, ad the dawn of science, which will govern mankind for all eternity, until....dunno?

think of it as the ending of all religion, with a more exact date...but i still think 9000 years is way too long for a rough estimate... heh science will eventually take over, reigion made obsolete, and philosophy, just a myth of yesteryear...

imagine people having the choice whether to prolong their lives, travel to unknown reaches in the great unknown up there, transforming our planet into a more environmentally friendly and liveable place, perhaps joining in a union of various other worlds that exsts out there...like star wars lol, mght be possible, sci-fi or not, its just logic heh

other than that, guess its all speculation, please no hard feelings, whoever reads this lol...just hope not too many people will wanna poke their nose into this!



few ours and thats it! i will attend my first lecture...wonder how it will turn out. hope nothing wrong will happen, i just want everything to turn out okay tomorrow...

signed up for CCAs! joining SPLA and Jazz band...and the logic behind joining the jazz band is because...hand itchy! wanna plae drums! lol...even joining SPLA's manga course is because...my hands are so damn itchy, feel like doing something lol!

think cca wont start that early so i will just lie low for now huh?

i am considering transferring files into my notebook soon, cuz i need to spruce it up real soon, and have my iTunes up and running and have my pictures in this notebook so i can change the wallpaper of this laptop......

ah well, now to read forums...zzz

*signing out*



havent blogged in a while again! why am i always neglecting my blog...hmm...

anyways, going to start poly real soon, two days from now as a matter of fact. so i have seen the place and have gotten to know some people, and have studied the site mapof that place, now all i have to do is to experience it for myself.

status:

class has no girls, all the lecturers are old men/women, class is approx. 20 stong, and might be boring if no socializing occurs...lol

okays, now for band maters. rachel's not around, and now we are really short of one bassist. and dicky says go ahead with jamming, altough i am not sure if its gonna turn out okay. i will need the practice though...... it would be next week friday hopefully. i just have to wait for that phonecall or sms, and learn "Karasu Tengu". i hope the old lineup stays.

now to research more on technique for drums...just learnt some use for my left leg, which would otherwise be not utilized. it can be used for cymbals... more reading up is needed...

cca matters, i just need to take a look at the SPLA place, and see if it is such a good place as it claims it is. hope to start manga classes asap.

manga matters: have to start brushing up, because i simply lack the practice, and am becoming rusty in what i used to find so fun...

so busy...guess thats it huh?

life's like that lol



oh no...havent blogged in a long time, i was soo soo packed with activity...

game all day, then suddenly, i was swamped with lots of invitations to the poly, first to make my pass, then to get laptop, and sign up for cca...even till now, things ae pretty hazy, and i am waiting for the poly to start before i take any action myself...

now using my lappy to type this blog, and see if my darling is good enough to cope with such pressure....... most probably i wont be using this lappy much for online games, only have like some old games that require low specs to play, therefore low lag (unless tweaked)

so gonna start school prety soon huh...i am pretty nervous myself... i am gonna read up on my math a bit, before i return to my drumming, which i have been reading, and lacking practice, until recently, when i decided that i could do with some night practices, since it would not be adviseable for me to practice in the day...parental support is lacking here, and i have to carry out my passion in secret...... only place i can or am willing to share is here, in my blog......

recently established contact with des...seems that rachel is leaving soon, and will not return till like 11-12 may, till then, practice, and keeping my head low... other than that, i only know that lin and dicky are "cool" with their lives...so i assume they are alright...although i would have liked more info......

okays,most of my old hobbies are coming back, like manga art, i hav to come back to it, it is the only thing i can relate to, although my skills have been pretty rusty... hums...

seeing drumming tapes makes me jealous, and makes me thirst for jamming sesion, or at least a drum set to be put before me so i can hammer away and hone the art...

feel so empty at home......now just waiting for anime at 12am...

anyways, now for technical details......this blog is gonna get another facelift... so that i can use the blog radio, and play some song that is nice...... i am gonna search for a new skin, cuz i cant off this lappy, otherwise my download will go to waste... the trusty lappy can last 2 more hours, so hopefully the download finishes fast, the load speed sucks......

meanwhile, reading forums one last time, then go search for a skin that i like very much and stick to it for a long time......

man i feel soo guilty for leaving my blog alone... i have to write more often! i must! cuz this thing chronicles my life and everything i have done in the past......

looked up some old friends, talk to them and learn new stuff, find out more....

okays enough riff-raff and chit-chat...gotta search that skin pronto! haha >.< new blog skin here i come! wee~~~

p.s. upgrades may take a day...think i can do it by tonight?



wtf, volunteer all day and no good comes >.<

i wasted some days without gaming. thankfully my bro is going away on some sort of camp, and i will be able to have some gaming fun for a while until he returns. then hes gotta work and i cant play again T-T

just that day, des contacted me, asked me to learn one new song......its hard, that song, but with so much time, it shld be easy.

now all i wanna do is to wait for april 16, or some time earlier, then next is to buy that laptop and be able to play games on it o.O

okays, now to log into sgpt and check on akat clan before it gets outta hand >.<



okay. had one heck of a weekend......pt all saturday, altho i play D2 in morning...then spent whole day bored... >.<

okays, today went to volunteer again, and have to go volunteer next week also...man people are like asking me to do stuff, free labour?

anyways i gotta worry about poly...since i know where i am going already, all i have to do now is to shop and wait



yea man, submitted the applications and left with nothing much to do until april 16...initially thought is april 18 until i saw the form...so muddleheaded...




wahaha, thats the name of alucard, no life king!

really lived like a no life king, and i havent blogged in a long long time >.<

which reminds me, i have lots to do with my handphone and mp3...the songs are are dusty, and 3 weeks old... so old >.<

even forgot that i changed the blog's skin...sigh...problem gaming is taking a toll on my life... and i am skipping CSI just to blog >.<

MapleStory has some kind of freaking problem with the client, and i cant seem to download (funny, why do i even play that game? on impulse? heat of the moment? dunno... o.O) so i think i can just take a break from that game >.<

received some poly enrolment package, which means i have to study soon >.<>.<

so until then, i am just a no life king! cuz i have no life



man, its been a long time since i posted...

guess i have made some decisions ffor myself. i have decided not to step into the jrock scene for a while now. judhing by the market out there, its just way too small >.<>.<>.<

now, i have to try to revamp this site...its really giving me problems and i dont like it at all >.<>.< guess i screwed it up the last time o.O

this time, i try using something from deathnote... never watched it, but guess i might have to someday... wonder if it will turn out nice?

okays...here goes!



life got meaningless after i temporarily left lin and the others... though i can worry less...and maybe by the time i get back to them, i might have just lost my place in the band, but i am prepared for it, because frankly, seeing that looks on their faces, i know they have sort of lost interest, and it might not be good for me to return, unless they are fully okay with it......

seriously, if there were something that i must tell them, it would be that to jam with guilt or to jam while thinking of outside stuff will suck, makes me unable to concentrate, and i hate it when that happens

thats all i have to say for the band. anyways, i guess i am not going anywhere afterall, because the thailand trip does not require my presence, and i feel that staying at home would be best. and i guess the reason i leave the band temporarily (maybe?) is mainly because of my parents. that is going to stick with me all my life man, the humiliation of having to listen to what your mommie and daddie says, even at such an age, feel so ashamed man.

locked up at home with just my mom, it sucks because i have nowhere to go......

or is it? is this the reality?

hum...... tell you the real story blog....

i left the band because my parents asked me to, and also because it would be difficult to jam under their noses. the trip to thailand was just an excuse so that i did not have to jam, because it would be very difficult for me. it was so selfish. if this goes out ima gonna get the sack, knowing they will not listen to anymore nonsense. see thatface on des and i know he cant tolerate no more. guess thats the end of me...... cant redeem myself no more, and guess reality is more serious than fantasy...

sucky parents, thats what i would blame... excuses are hard to make you know?!? lies are hard to come up man, and making flawless plans require thinking. and i am just running low on ideas and time to do such things...... i no longer have any guilt, all thanks to previous experience. i feel no remorse, no pity, no guilt. only stressed, that such plans are difficult to create, fabricate...

sometimes, i feel that the life i have right now, it is all built on lie after lie, and in the end, it is all nothing but big fat lies! i am just some fucking liar, covering my ass, living in bloody denial, and giving in all the bloody time, while thinking of how to cover my bloody fat ass.

i am so useless...why?

sometimes i wish i can just jump into one of my many manga fantasies and just forget everything, and not be able to return to real life or reality. i just wanna run away, erase my identity, have a new name, live away from my past, deny completely that it is even there, and start anew. completely reset everything...

how i wish...



ima gonna have to leave my current band. i dont think the current state of things is going to solve anything. had arguements with parents, and i know arguements will persist if this goes on, and i am getting increasingly sick and tired of all the fucking bullshit. gone were he days when i could just invent any kind of bullshit like *snap* this. gone were the days where i could tolerate everything that stood my way. now, its the selfish era. i got to think for myself. i got to find out what is it that i really want. what my life is. why i am here, what was i made for. selfish questions, but i think its about time i considered anyway, being selfless sucks too.

now i was given yet another mandate to stop sourcing for bands in the internet. heck fuck do i care about it man, i will find a band, go underground, but will bid my time. cuz i have to fight my computer gaming addiction, right until i step into the polytechnics.

to Morir es Vivir members, sorry that i let you down. des wanted me out, and i left formally, at 11:30am this day. i leave because i must, and staying will pull you guys down anyway. dont want to burden you guys with my cartload of bullshit, i want to settle my ruined life a bit. next move is to have proper lessons and training, and a proper band to be with. it will be another band finding experience for me, but its the only way. hope you guys find a better drummer, and best of luck for superband 9if you guys are going at all). also want to thank you guys for having given me opportunities, and i appreciate it, and also i learnt much from you guys. a big thank you! Arigatou Gozaimasta!

back to a life where i remember vividly. no enjoyment, all conformism and bore. now i dont know whether to return to working life, but to finance my future gaming and jamming exploits, i have to consider this painful and ardeous walkway.

life's like that...i guess.......

ah, now for the technical aspect of things. this blog is going to get another makeover real soon. i just dont know what theme to base it on. but as soon as i find something that i like, i guess i will be able to make this blog look great like in the past! at least these are the only happy things i can keep myself occupied with...*sigh*

new anime coming up on arts central! rumbling hearts! wonder what it will be like. no more get backers though...so i just wanna wish them a very happy goodbye. they were awesome in entertaining me for many nights, where i would be sick with worry about band problems, and what new excuses to make just to jam.

no moire guilt, but no more fun, no more life... wonder if the price was too steep...



another weekend...hmm...

went to ja yesterday, saw the looks on their faces and it told me all...whats more, i dont think i might have anymore time with them, or myself...i seriously dont even have time for myself... i am running dry of excuses, and getting extremely touchy of late. this will lower the performance of the band, coordination will not be there if this goes on...

so i told lin at night that i suggested we freeze the band, cuz rachel will not make it in april, and me, in march, and we would freeze the band until may......i dont know... all i said was just... suggestions... i dont know how the band will take it... they can reject my proposal i wont mind...but, well, if they come up with something i find difficult to deal with, i guess all i have to do is to think hard of some mopre excuses, and play along...

whoa, stopped typing just to "argue" with my mom...... looks like she knows my activities...she agrees tom let me jam now!!! wahahaha!!!

now i have to pay up my tab, and be regular in payments... looks like i can come out with compromise.



the cny was okay, met relatives, stuff, eat, watch movie, sleep, play comp, and even FORGOT TO BLOG!!!

only thing is, few asked about my o levels, and that is a relief itself!

visiting does not end though, heading to ant's place this friday, and to swing sticks!

nothing much do do now...



man, today is new year's eve, haha, have to head over to one of my uncle's place to eat some reunion dinner thing, which has been the tradition for quite awhile

anyways, i have decided on one thing, which is not to reveal anything about my o levels to any relatives if possible, as i do not want some conversation about it. nor will i tell which polytechnic i will be going to...really hate such people...it really pays to be humble!

anyways, got a blister from practicing and a scath...

i dont there will be anything interesting to write now in the morning...all i want to do is to go net surfing for a while before i hit some games... and really relax myself this nice weekend...i hope it does not rain though...and of course, the sun is great when i woke up...hope it will stay the same or the next few days no?

never really knew what i should be doing sometimes...of course, a few downloads are running as we speak...the new arrivals better be nice to hear....i am dumping them into my mp3 pront though...cant be listening to GLAY all day long! haha

ah...nothing much, just that i feel rather relaxed actually...i dont know what i can stand to lose this saturday morning...just want to thank the stars for watching me all this while... haha, pays to be thankful though..

i m now listening o some of my older songs such as YUI...i remember, YUI was one of the first few singers that bekoned me into the genre of jpop, and later on, i leaped into jrock... looks like every jrocker hass a history for himself no?

now, to check if the downloads are ready, and get a few more! an also to change my rickety chair! adeiu!

peace to all!



okay, new year is coming, and well, lots of money to collect, and lots of relatives to appease, and shut them up?

anyways, practice isnt paying off, i am getting sleepless nights, and blisters wont go away, maybe they are healing now tho... quite pain, need glove...

so happy that the house is finally clean, so i dont need to be sent running around doing some cleaning...tho it was rather relaxed actually...

now, i managed to figure out how to put song on my blog...haha, this is one of my longtime favourites, but its not looping...so i have to try fix that part...

going back to monatoesprit insteand of mapling all day soon, beginning to find maple boring because all i can do is grind, and i hate grinding/pharming for long hours...

anyways, band members, here is the update, for one song dicky sent me...wonder why the sudden decision, but i learnt it anyway, quite an okay song...think des and rachel will need this upload most? you never know!

http://download.yousendit.com/F282CF2D1E2816B5



tomorrow, i get back the o level results, and it kinda sucks because i have long forgotten if i was confident during the o levels or not, so i no longer am able to expect what kind of grades i am gonna get! how stupid can that be?!?

ah well, set my mind to do a course which i had earlier thought was impossible because it is not my bloody interest, but now, since the misunderstanding and naievity has been cleared, i think i can step into poly in peace!

nothing to expect, even for my o lvl, because i know its going to be mediocre marks again, but what marks i get, it had better be good!

ah, will get to wear my school uni one last time and then, well, i never get to wear it again! but i guess ima gonna keep it as some keepsake stuff, including my badge. cuz no matter how bad it sounds, it was still my school, at least tribute it a little...

now i have got some problems here. the blogskins website does not seem to be working properly, hey, it works now, but it worked pretty bad yesterday, perhaps it was computer problem. ah i dont carre. ima gonna spruce up this blog once more, and changes should be underway, to make way for the new year!



man...damn it, cant leave the house now...shit the curfew...i hate it...
















okay, due to popular demand, i will post something interesting...

first up, gundam stargazers!!! its the new gundam series that is now being aired i tokyo tv, and i dont know where they are now, meaning which episode they are airing now, but i know for certain that their first opening was sung by HIGH and MIGHTY COLOR, and i have the song here... will be updating and putting the url for download...wanna listen its for free...

from what i know, it is a separate story, different from seed and seed destiny, new characters, same gundam (different models) and lots of girls (thats a rumor, saw nothing but posters and reviews)

then singapore won the asean cup against thailand! you should have seen the trophy, only two countries that have won the cup are singapore and thailand, their names are the only one etched on that trophy, for 6 years...

man, seriously the thais were strong, i must admit, singapore had a tough fight...

ah nothing much anymore, but i believe its gonna be a busy week next week.



wahahaha!!! spent all morning just to cram my previous comp into my study...now, the study is an entertament hub!!!

man, woke up all groggy this morning just to push a table out of the study! man...was having bad dreams last nite...

and when i went into the pantry to find no coffee, i was like wtflmfaowhyistherenocoffee?!? so i had to use 3in1 coffee......hate 3in1...was looking for that jar of nescafe...my dad took it away i guess...

so no more late night cuppa...or else that grouch will steal my coffee jar!!!

no coffee...then have to choke on bread, with straits times as my friend...headlines say that singapore beat thailand...there will be a new water cleaning plant to use river water...yea...saw yacob ibrahim talking on the news yesterday...dunno what it was about anyways......singapore win thailand?!?!? man...all becos of that ravichandran ref...so bloody kayu...the alam shah and the thailannd player both jump back together what, y award foul like no mother one? u think i never watch asean cup final ar? make the thai coach so bloody angry, see piss them off...as if thailannd do not have enough problems with singapork already lor... we allow thaksin come in they not happy...now at the second leg on sunday at bangkok, they say what, got demonstrators outside singapore embassy? wtfrotflmfaostfu man, all because of lousy diplomacy lor...

let thailand win lah, let them happy abit lor...... young lions got future chance what..."YOUNG" lions leh, YOUNG leh...

ah who cares about that match...i hate disgruntled players and coaches...

man, yesterday...slept with mp3 on...listen to gekka...then learn halfway...then sleep...rothlmfao... nevermind...tonight got chance one hehehe......more practice..... and tonite i wanna do some more manga...

not just watch anime tho...must draw once again...makes me feel aggravated knowing that my skill is rusty and needs polishing...

man, watched some beatboxing show, and now i am like beatboxing all the time at home...my mom thinks i went crack in the head lmfao...

tonight...more tv...more practice...day time...more cleaning... need to clean the bloody house, to make it less bloody for the new year... although if it were bloody, it would would superdupermegaultramotherfuckingly auspicious, cuz its red, no, should be crimson huh...

ah, kid bro smuggled handphone to school again! then smses me to tell me he has to go to a friend's house to some projekt....... and askes me to train his account lmao....... ok guess have to help him a little, cuz i make him pay some money lmfao...

wah...the shuffle option in my itunes is cursed or summat...its playing all my favourite songs back to back!!! woohoo!!!!!

ilovemycomeomgilovemycompsomotherfuckinglyloveyousweetie...

ah...if you dont want to be hit by sticks, dont want to be my high hat or snare drums, then get outta my room....practice starts now!!!!! life hazard to all except me (player)!!!

i am goin crazy...



back to square one man! nice shot!







figured it be better to have a few more pics! here they are!





man...

stupid outlook express being plagued by some stupid spam...incident report sent le...


anyways...i think its time to spruce up the blog with more pictures once again...i have not been drawing for a long time, and i think its about time i put more pictures of scans in...more practice, more perfection!!


practice hurts...i had blisters on my hand from too much practice...hope it will wear off soon man......maybe its because of the holding technique...i did not have theory in drumming, so i guess, thats the part i missed out on...heh *sheepish* but i will continue to play to the best of my ability!

ahh...found the wallpaper thats the basis of this blog's skin...i will post it!


speaking of which... maybe i will do a little bit of critique on get backers...


ゲト　バカズ, geto bakazu, team of two: midou ban and amano ginji. each famous for their various abilities...namely the evil eye, snake bite and snake kill for ban, and the ability to command electricity in any imaginable form, ginji. they seek to get things and return uit back to their owners, at a price. they are however, not so good with money, building up tabs with Paul at the Honkey Tonk, occasionally getting jobs from Hevn, the mediator.


they set out in dangerous quests to even the infnite castle to retrieve IL, components of an atomic weapon, and sometimes, set out in ridiculous quests which are oftentimes laden with their comic relief.


themes of friendship are portrayed, loyalty, sense of honor, and of course, the chiibi...


ratings would be 4.5/5 for something that good in my opinion. way better than Inuyasha and Shaman King in my opinion





hey band members! i hav a song, mayb we shld try? iris, if u r reading this, the lyrics i have not dound it...

heres the link(s):

http://download.yousendit.com/A8BE58543833D094
http://www.yousendit.com/download/1SdyWjk%2BBId5TA%3D%3D

ahhh...its fast...its called Doukoku no Ame by GRAN RODEO

hehs, anyways, theres much to expect...results comin out soon! second week of february! hope the results are good, and dunno whether i wanna go jc or not...actually i feel like not studying so soon, still wanna play like krazy...

ah nvm



man...

things have been extremely boring lately...if not for some jamming fun!

band members who see this, just to tell you that you all rawk too man!

its too bad that i cant go along with you guys that often because of certain circumstances at home, but once i am ready, i swear, rawk on man!

just cant wait to land myself in a random institution.

ah, this skin gets boring...guess ima gonna change the skin of this blog real soon!

just a little bit more!

sometimes i wish i could just go and live in a world of my ovn once again, like i used to, but would that bring any good? i realized the importance of being with people, so i stepped out, you can call that self terapy, self help...man, every skill that i now possess, has been self taught.

my art skills are self taught, my drum skills are self taught, calligraphy is self taught, appreciation of art and literature is self discovered, getting out of a near autistic like state? self achieved. friends? self found. achievements? self earned...no teacher, just the self...

if everything is gonna turn out that way, i might as well go hone what i have in solitude first, before emerging stronger...seeing too much is damaging too sometimes...

ah now, i gotta rest my self...havent typed so fast in a long time...and i got a show to catch too! man, life is just so full of surprises huh...so...

people say my attitude is happy go lucky, but i say, i am just following the flow, following the winds, wherevert hey take me, because i know that the direction they piont to is my destiny, because, i believe the skies and stars will be watching me from above, and they have given me such gifts, so that i wont feel left out...so i must be grateful to the stars, granting me such abilities, i never thought i would have... and i will tell you why...

everytime i write something with the da vinci influenced writing of mne, i feel that it has been done by someone else...i look at my drawings and sketches and feel that it was not done by me...everytime i do something remarkable again, i feel ssome hands are guiding me, so i know, that the stars are watching me...the child of the abel?

i just cant explain, but i will not exploit...i may have to discover what else they have to offer me, and tribute them accordingly, and lead the life they suggest.

the rest is up to me..

ah...today is the day...and i still gotta work...

watching too much get backers is getting me into trouble...my comp isnt just up to the standard...hum... wonder if it can handle more...

anyways......i wonder what i can expect today...must be some unrulry kids again i rekon...hum...no escape...

and its been getting a little boring these days...nothing much to expect...long weekend to expect, and stuff like that...

just hope next thursday comes fast...



ah well, things went out okay yesterday...when i first started work at kumon!

kids these days are real spoilt brats...i dont quite have the stamnia to handle them sometimes!!! but i guess its all in a days work...and i am still learning though...

kinda nice to work with some of my colleagues, its as if they knew what i was facing! haha

anyways...there wont be much to do.....and my birthday is coming soon again...17 january...i turn 17 officially! haha, cant wait for that day, though no presents for me...guess i will live with it, like i used to...as always...

ah anyways...why bother about such boring matters, when you know you arent gonna get anything out of it anyway... come to think of it, i havent really celebrated my day in a long...long time...dont even remember when i last ate a cake, maybe on my friends' days' but not really mine...in fact, i dont think i have ever had a cake on my birthday ever! i dont remember...its been so long...

hum...back to the drawing room again...hum.......manga artists sure suffer a lot huh...?




haha, things are turning for the best now...

hum...where should i start...kelton's band did not go so well, because when i tried to ghet them back together, they sounded a little reluctant, so, i decided to just walk out of the picture... haha...

which i did, and for a short period of time, i had no band as usual, undil dicky and linette came along...and guess what...it is a hit!

cant believe it when they told me that they had some bad encounter with that bitchy christine, and the fiasco with OoZora, man, so i realized i was not alone...but that incident told me that i had to work harder!

anyways, i also found a job! and i got my place confirmed today! cool or what! now i will have some spare cash to jam and buy stuff...also some free time to go out and jam at my own leisure...hum?

i also went back to my old hobbies again...i wonder why, but i just went back anyway... i will paste the new piece on...like always...maybe i will go do more...isnt up to standard, like in the past, cuz i am still learning and also, because it was a long time since i last drew... still need to scan wahahaha

ahh, havent heard anything from dear 4E1...nothing at all...maybe they are real busy?

shit encountered some problems...looks like i cant post pictures for the time being...haha



haha

havent been posting for a while now, but i have lots to say...

well, where should i start...class outing and my stay at raffles hotel for christmas? hum... well, i just informed my folks that i was going to this class outing, and will meet them at the hotel later...ah it was real fun... especially sin ce i got my sticks that day, and also a toy to put my handphone in, yes, i finally got myu handphone tho...

the hotel was gerat, did not cost me anything, because was on invitation basis, my uncle invited me to stay with my kid cousins... play halo and fifa 07 till late, party like hell, shop and tour all day, what else can i cay? that was my christmas for me.... though uneventful, but quite fun!

then i remember going to some camp at tzuchi... (must have mentioned that before...get a strange feeling...)

then, i was kicked out of a band i wanted to join so badly....cuz the coordinator is a grouch...ah i would have left on my own accord even if that bitch did not kick me out...

now i am back to square one...no job, no band, absolutely nothing at all...except one...

i got my new comp finally! it was kinda good, until i realized that the graphic card is not up to scratch, but better than the previous...but now, i scream at online net gaming: bringest them oneth!

ah, new years eve and new year day passed uneventfully...went to various places, such as sentosa (again)... ah as always, it would be fun if i went out on my own...

people are flocking back to school already! and i am still sitting at home, waiting and waiting...nothing much i can do though...

ah...back to gaming...i just hope i find a job redal soon...makes my life eventful...sigh...



oh shit, i neglected my blog, completely forgot to blog!!

ah but lots osf stuff happened...

first of all, i started to receive news of a class outing...initially set on christmas eve, then now changed to 23rd dec... either way, it will be kinda fun, that is if it will take place! which i doubt it will, because of some bloody un-enthu people in my class, all breaking up, and completely not loyal and shit...

ah anyways...did plenty of shoping, bought lotsa stuff, and well, buy anymore, and my dad will curse and swear...

anyways, the tzuchi camp came...thought it was boring at first, then realized that there was so much there...better than the previous camps i had there. and well, i must say, the people there are different now, with all the poly jc and uni ppl there, well, the environment is just different...

thought he nights are short, have like 6 hrs or 5 hrs sleep every night, but it was real fun there...met plenty of ppl there...and well, still havent get their numbers, now asking the group leader for it tho...

and well, plenty of time spent there was to learn morals...so i thought it was...then i went there to realize that i learnt stuff money cant buy...so, well, all i learnt are the basic stuff they always tell me, but in a different sort of way...so yea, it really has an impact on me...

then again, i found this new webbie, so that i can get into bands...ah well, met a few invites, until i finally decided on one, which i am comfortable with...now have a band to sit with...playing drums as usual, and have to practice even more...tho i am oka only for now...

ah, download sites offline, not much games to play, got a new comp coming up, spoilt my earphone and got a new one, excatly the same as the one i had before...ah, thats my life for now...

to those at the camp, group 5, you all rawk, and i mean it!



man, the grad nite was a huge success...but also not so much of a success too...

for one, i had fun there...music was corny though...and i was rather relaxed...the 4e1 people kept on changing the seats...and i got so fed up with that kah eng i went over to the sec 5s...i hate nig so much...wish he did not tag along...i mean...he has been doing something like that for bvery long already...and i find it rather irritating... all year round...last year too...havent he given us enough trouble already?

that aside...i think everyone was cool...nice dress...nice clothes...(though the food sux) and the emcees? they sucked... dont really know how they went to organize that crap...

man, forgot to take my camera along...and had to test out the handphone one... of all days too! and it was like out of memory space after just a few photos...bummer...

alright...other than that...people were giving well wishes all over...and well...for some of us...it might be the last tie talking together and well...i guess...it must have been great knowing the people in this school... i mean...i cant have done nothing in all my 4 years???

ah... now there is nothing to do again... back to using the computer...with only one promise...it is going to be replaced soon...

this new computer better be so good...it loads interet browsers in a blink of an eye...and runs programs with nearly no loading time and stuff and shit...ah like i said...its all the hardware...

there isnt much to do now again...now i have to wait for monday...then i will head all the way down to bangkit to? anthony's house!!! man...he finally invited me to his house....and i guess i better do the same before he goes on his long vacation...speaking of vacations...i think i wont be going to one...so it will mean i have to find some work, or just sit around and use mp pc...and make sure that i completely forget what i have learnt in school before i head to a new institution...

an wat am i doing? i was typing as fast as i am thinking...writing does not even give such results... ye...writing...exams...the memory is still fresjh...it seems like yesterday...

a week has passed since that harrowing experience...i really wish i can recover from any shock before i go back... all kinds of sadness...leave them behind...all the good things...look back at them...smile...and move on with life...thats all i can do now...smile at everything that comes my way...perhaps i am goingto try to change the way i treat people too...maybe for a change...time to change everything again...anyway...the jen of the past will never be te same as the jen of the present...thats a mandate...and a sworn testimony to myself...

maye i will try to be a little more...silent? huh... smile no matter what i see...and thats all... and do nothing....even if it is bad...just smile.....hide my true feelings...

ah whats all that blabber...anyways...i guess i can try and look for someone to chat to...kinda bored...

why?



man...tomorrow is the grad nite...i wonder how it will turn out...i hope i can go there, have a little fun then go off...cuz i wont wear too formal...i hate formalities...












man, so much for the patchwork on the blog... i really like this tsubasa skin...with the ending theme in it too...









man, there's nothing to do nowadays, but to look at my computer, waiting for the new one to come, and there isnt much to do nowadays... i can like level up once or twice without much of a proble, then comes the part where i have nothing to do...

man, luckily i can still blog...thankfully...i made it a point to write down my thoughts, out of habit, and because i find that this kills the time...afteral, i think i have a long wait before i can get back my o level results...

then there's grad nite, very soon, its coming, and i will see everyone again..and see if they have had much rest themselves...maybe there wont be much to expect there...i dont know...but the time seems to fly real quick...

when i first knew it, i did badly for my preliminary exams...then cane the time when i had roughly one month to study up...i was long prepared...then first paper...physics practical...then last week...then last paper...then now...i still cant get over the shock, but i feel that the vacation, or rather, long vacation is going to put my mind at rest...of course, not a day passes without me thinking how my results will be like...soon, they will be on board some jet, sent to the UK, and marked...i just hope i have done enough...thats all...

then i still have some stuf which i did not have time to fiddle with...some hobby of mine that i did not really had time for, and even if i did it, i did it illegally...well, looks like i have all the time i want! i think i am going to carry on with the work where i stopped...

looking at the msn list repopulate, then shrik everyday...man, people sure are busy...and i havent been leaving the house much, except on the weekends...to meet up with my cuz...after a long time...did the usual, went somewhee that he likes and stuff... well, at least i spent the time well...

ah well...time to go check the downloads...and maybe go back to pristontale for another level...before i sign out... haha...

so much for the holidays...and my handphone...



o lvl is FINISHED!!!

man, it was grueling...and tirin, and difficult, but i still made it! haha! always will...

ah...bryan koh has given me enough info to start on a manga, as soon as i get some more material, i will start...and lets see what i can do... maybe more training first...

anyway, i am going to game all the way, chat, and wait for grad nite...see everyone in their best (or worst for nig?)

anyways...i really have nothing much to say for the moment, least of all, i just stepped out of hell itself...maybe i will go shower or something, have a sip of beer, and stuff...and relax...there will be nothing much for a vey long time...

ah well...back to business!



lmao depavali...still have to go to void deck meet chan, for chem, and in te end he never teach me and ant, and nelson, so lame, went to eat and come back he still talking to girls...anyway, we also sit there all talk cock, and do nothing much...





deparaya is near the corner, but o lvls even nearer haha!

man, never blog for very long, feel quite empty... now, tomorrow i am also gonna be able to use comp! great man! haha!

physics prelims is next week, and i have prepared everything...this has been my dream, to be so prepared, all i can do is to be even more prepared! man, i am pumped even before the exams starts! man...some 9 hours a day everyday now, studying...studying...studying...

yea, quite right, i will feel a little bored at times, of course i will, well, but it is worth it!

well, thinking of school sometimes, thinking of all the things i have done real good, think of the things i havent done so good, and well, think of everything undone...things i have to tell people especially, things i have to do...ah...sometimes, no time to regret for me!

ah well...playing pt!

























SHIT!!! next week have mock papers!!! rrghh...like we havent got enough to do!

man...it has been a busy week, rushing through all the work, ad me studying like mad, while being insulted by some stupid teachers...

ah...VIEzone is back...and PT is doing fine (i got a chance to play...surprisingly...) and well...started downloading of course!!! got some nice stuff that i missed out you know...

one more lesson and there will be no more! from british council!!! haha...not that i hate that place...but it really feels relieving...but really sad...i will miss kenji, kenny...and the others...

school is ending so soon...i feel kinda empty...so sad...4 years...and i will try my best to work my way out of it...i dont wanna leave, but i dont wanna stay too... i guess... haha...contradicting...

thinking of arts stream all of the time...haha...they say good things happen in the jc...i hope i will find some ood future there...better prospects in every aspects! people to meet...things to learn...the thought of advancement is just soo enticing!

i feel like sprucing up my blog real soon...but i dont know when i will do it...maybe next week...i will take a little time off my off day and write the apprasials as i promised myself to do...and to give this blog a new look again!

ahh....after this...another round of revisions...i hope it will get promising... and something learnt... more improvement...doubling of skills...everything...all just to gear up for the final charge...

ah...i wont be seeing me class very soon...after grand nite, after february...just hope to always keep in touch with them all...especially a few......

ah...i guess there is nothing to look foward to...except more hell...and even more hell...then salvation...wonder when will i be truely free... hmm...



ok...haha i guess, everything is gonna be fine now...

got the chance to use the comp, so added a tagboard...doing zarmee's boring work now...but she does want us to do good does she?

i guess, while i am doing her work...i will take time to comment on how busy we'v become lately...

i also have to thank dunnie for helping me address a problem...man...i cant believe it...i cant do without having good relations...i mean...well, just look at how i can gain this bit of diplomacy for myself...haha...anyways...he rawks totally! anyways...i will still hope that this class i am in will all hang in there, just like me...i am hanging in there...hoping that there will be a new light at the end...as always...

okay...now...since there is an evaluation exercise being done in school...i guess i should be doing one too... haha...so...here comes the cass list and i will do it for everyone...what i think of everyone...maybe in me next entry...gimme some time th think yow!!! haha

now i am done with zarmee's work...sigh...finally...it was way long...man...and well...i look foward to a better tomorrow....haha as always...

tomorrow...there's PE...should i do PE? nah... haha, not to emulate that irksome someone though! haha

so...i guess..."you are the sunshine of my day!" a line from "Sunshine Of My Day" from Rie Fu...man...lots of nice stuff i have stashed away...and VIEzone is down??? man...only have one option left haha...

actually...i intend to work very late...till 12 if i must...cuz i am really gonna hang in there!!! haha!! hopefully i will pull thru...no more sucky marks to bother me...

and yes....i got 75 for my lit...what a relief...

its gonna be a few months since i started this blog...haha...actually...its kinda cool come to think of it...cometimes...i have no one to tell what i think...then...well...i can just type it out actually! so easy...yea...tedious...i cant type as fast any more...dont understand why though... now looking for a pic or 2 to post in this blog entry for today...

here! grapevine...a really cool group of people...singing jazz cum rock... quite a good combination i think... look up btw...

and me current wallpaper...nah...half of it actually...i kinda like this one...its been with me for a while...makes me relax...

anyways...i guess i have to continue my art soon...because i am getting real rusty at it...really! i cant believe it...the control is gone! i had so much control of the pen...now to pull it back...but i guess i will do it to relax once in a while...like peggy said...you cannot stop now...

like real...

i know when to rest...i prioritize...cua...my study schedule is jammed packed....and i have just no time for myself if i follow strictly to it...which i beloeve i am going to...or else i wont make it...

okay...i guess...i have alot of work to do... plenty to look foward to...plenty to do...

now watching my printer printing so fast...like it is earnest for the job... haha... good ol' printer!

ok...going soon...and a few hours more before i turn in...turn in?!? no way man... "wakin' up 2am just to play Hexen!" me bro's good ol' quote for playing comp late night...haha! he's a good man!

name: Jen jenocideDC.
birthday: 17/01/90
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