light my way

Saturday, October 21, 2006 ;

7:44 PM

lmao depavali...still have to go to void deck meet chan, for chem, and in te end he never teach me and ant, and nelson, so lame, went to eat and come back he still talking to girls...anyway, we also sit there all talk cock, and do nothing much...

ah well, all me cuz is at me house, and guess what, its kinda boring...

ah well, this may be the last time i blog in a very long time...so i am going to make the best of it... i have been studying for like 9 hours a day...some say its insane, i think its tiring, my mom thinks its not enough...teachers say i shouldnt stress myself out...tuition teachers are giving me problems...

ah...1 more month to go...and then i dont quite know what to type now...except to net surf, got a little tired of pt, and now i have to rest a little...now i think i have to consider ...what to do...

ah well, i try posting as many pics as i can, the best of the best!

light my way ♥

Friday, October 20, 2006 ;

5:14 PM

deparaya is near the corner, but o lvls even nearer haha!

man, never blog for very long, feel quite empty... now, tomorrow i am also gonna be able to use comp! great man! haha!

physics prelims is next week, and i have prepared everything...this has been my dream, to be so prepared, all i can do is to be even more prepared! man, i am pumped even before the exams starts! man...some 9 hours a day everyday now, studying...studying...studying...

yea, quite right, i will feel a little bored at times, of course i will, well, but it is worth it!

well, thinking of school sometimes, thinking of all the things i have done real good, think of the things i havent done so good, and well, think of everything undone...things i have to tell people especially, things i have to do...ah...sometimes, no time to regret for me!

ah well...playing pt!

light my way ♥

Saturday, October 14, 2006 ;

3:42 PM

okay finally, the year ended...it was quite sad, sec 4...it just ends like this, yesterday i had to just rush off without writing more...

well, went back to school, and saw, ah hao, aloy first...well, first thing i want to do is to know what would happen, (lmao, when me pops parked the car, marl called me just to make sure i had the song they wanted...so funny!)

anyways, i separated with me mom n pops later, cuz they are being taken care off, nicely i hope, by usherers...so, i went to find the others...

we sat down, waited until the thing started...took photos, tried to take karen oei and chia but they were so fast (i didnt know penguins could run!) anyway, when i received the award, well, i was so nervous!!! tried not to smile like a madass, and took photo with dear ex vp...

then, we sat and watched this really long prize presentation, until finally, we could find out what the special event really was, it was sing along! and it was a sad song...(i will try to be happy here, i know what it feels like to be sad...) then this ex student gave a speech...and guess what...i saw...me...in him...i did not believe it...he was like...me...everything...though not all of it...attitude, way of speech...well...i dont know...fate brings us so far, the rest of our lives is up to us...i just hope...my efforts wont be in vain...i used to think prayer does not work, now i beg the heavens for help...see me through this, i want a better tomorrow...god help us all...i am no buddhist no more...panic just rushed through me...who to believe? wht would happen in my o levels?

then, well, like the usual, someone told me, inside my head, told me to go on...face this battle, even though chances are slim...then i realized...my preparation wont go in vain, but it will, if i dont defeat the sole enemy...myself...

so things ended with plenty of meaning...

then we went to the plaza for some fun...haha...sparkles time! havet really enjoyed the fu of sparkles...kudos to dun who endured all the pain from stray sparks that fley to him...sorry dunxin! played like a jedi though...or was that ant's line? but it was fun...

went up, 8 boxes of pizza...went round taking photos...was kind of cool, cuz today, i really get totake a snapshot of the people...even her...

she was all that i really thought of...if i did nothing...i will live with the feeling that i have left anothe problem in the latch, in the shelf...i just hope i hadn't...then something told me that it hasnt...well...a number of things...she seemed to have softened that "coldness"...detenee...i can see detenee...things are softening...or is it because it is the last day...cross traffic lights, kev, n the others saying wierd things when i stand next to her...finally, left for carpark, waved a last goodbye...and i saw it..a smile...no my eyes were fooling me...old men always had such delusions, maybe...it might be just that...it told me...that there was hope...and there is still time...i really hope so... dont let the sands slip past me...

always was so resoluteabout me being alone...now, i have decided to step out of the box...which i did...and it landed me today, where i am...i am grateful for those that guided me...and well...i still feel that there is more dirty work to do...

i just hope she has forgiven me...i mean no harm at all...i just want the end to be alright...read her blog, and me name wasnt in it...(altho dear ant's wasnt too, but found it later with much effort, but i wont mind anyways...) ..hope it isnt too late for me at all...

still running the track that is time...i hope nothing is too late for me...sq...forgive me...god watch over 4e1... (lmao...)

anime of the time...SHAMAN KING!!!>>>

light my way ♥

Friday, October 13, 2006 ;

5:54 PM

man today is the last day and i think that everything has got to have a bi end...well, like today, there is going to be some speech day and i think that it should be over real soon, cuz i am actually looking foward to the pizzas and stuff after that, cuz me class is having some party at the end. so much for a big end!

well...now for some well deserved testimonials...

lmao... dun think i have the time to write that many...anyway, i should go get ready real soon

light my way ♥

Saturday, October 07, 2006 ;

4:12 PM

SHIT!!! next week have mock papers!!! rrghh...like we havent got enough to do!

man...it has been a busy week, rushing through all the work, ad me studying like mad, while being insulted by some stupid teachers...

ah...VIEzone is back...and PT is doing fine (i got a chance to play...surprisingly...) and well...started downloading of course!!! got some nice stuff that i missed out you know...

one more lesson and there will be no more! from british council!!! haha...not that i hate that place...but it really feels relieving...but really sad...i will miss kenji, kenny...and the others...

school is ending so soon...i feel kinda empty...so sad...4 years...and i will try my best to work my way out of it...i dont wanna leave, but i dont wanna stay too... i guess... haha...contradicting...

thinking of arts stream all of the time...haha...they say good things happen in the jc...i hope i will find some ood future there...better prospects in every aspects! people to meet...things to learn...the thought of advancement is just soo enticing!

i feel like sprucing up my blog real soon...but i dont know when i will do it...maybe next week...i will take a little time off my off day and write the apprasials as i promised myself to do...and to give this blog a new look again!

ahh....after this...another round of revisions...i hope it will get promising... and something learnt... more improvement...doubling of skills...everything...all just to gear up for the final charge...

ah...i wont be seeing me class very soon...after grand nite, after february...just hope to always keep in touch with them all...especially a few......

ah...i guess there is nothing to look foward to...except more hell...and even more hell...then salvation...wonder when will i be truely free... hmm...

light my way ♥

Monday, October 02, 2006 ;

8:33 PM

ok...haha i guess, everything is gonna be fine now...

got the chance to use the comp, so added a tagboard...doing zarmee's boring work now...but she does want us to do good does she?

i guess, while i am doing her work...i will take time to comment on how busy we'v become lately...

i also have to thank dunnie for helping me address a problem...man...i cant believe it...i cant do without having good relations...i mean...well, just look at how i can gain this bit of diplomacy for myself...haha...anyways...he rawks totally! anyways...i will still hope that this class i am in will all hang in there, just like me...i am hanging in there...hoping that there will be a new light at the end...as always...

okay...now...since there is an evaluation exercise being done in school...i guess i should be doing one too... haha...so...here comes the cass list and i will do it for everyone...what i think of everyone...maybe in me next entry...gimme some time th think yow!!! haha

now i am done with zarmee's work...sigh...finally...it was way long...man...and well...i look foward to a better tomorrow....haha as always...

tomorrow...there's PE...should i do PE? nah... haha, not to emulate that irksome someone though! haha

so...i guess..."you are the sunshine of my day!" a line from "Sunshine Of My Day" from Rie Fu...man...lots of nice stuff i have stashed away...and VIEzone is down??? man...only have one option left haha...

actually...i intend to work very late...till 12 if i must...cuz i am really gonna hang in there!!! haha!! hopefully i will pull thru...no more sucky marks to bother me...

and yes....i got 75 for my lit...what a relief...

its gonna be a few months since i started this blog...haha...actually...its kinda cool come to think of it...cometimes...i have no one to tell what i think...then...well...i can just type it out actually! so easy...yea...tedious...i cant type as fast any more...dont understand why though... now looking for a pic or 2 to post in this blog entry for today...

here! grapevine...a really cool group of people...singing jazz cum rock... quite a good combination i think... look up btw...

and me current wallpaper...nah...half of it actually...i kinda like this one...its been with me for a while...makes me relax...

anyways...i guess i have to continue my art soon...because i am getting real rusty at it...really! i cant believe it...the control is gone! i had so much control of the pen...now to pull it back...but i guess i will do it to relax once in a while...like peggy said...you cannot stop now...

like real...

i know when to rest...i prioritize...cua...my study schedule is jammed packed....and i have just no time for myself if i follow strictly to it...which i beloeve i am going to...or else i wont make it...

okay...i guess...i have alot of work to do... plenty to look foward to...plenty to do...

now watching my printer printing so fast...like it is earnest for the job... haha... good ol' printer!

ok...going soon...and a few hours more before i turn in...turn in?!? no way man... "wakin' up 2am just to play Hexen!" me bro's good ol' quote for playing comp late night...haha! he's a good man!

light my way ♥