Wednesday, July 26, 2006 ;
4:44 PM
yea, i feel much better...
of course i do! got back my specs, so i dont have to crawl like a blind mouse...
there was this fiasco with the TheaterWorks people i had on monday...and it is...SOLVED! i am going Aloha Changni! yea man, and its a chalet too! cool yow! have near infinite stock of refreshments, and i have a real story prepared! i am all pumped up! yarrh!!
anyway, the problem with her isnt going too well, i can only say that preogress is slow, and somehow, i get the feeling that one day, i wil really have to tell her some stuff face to face, clear the doubts, move on, explain everything, clear everything, walk away as friends, no longer misunderstanding each other, prefer it to be like that, can talk like normal people...i know she can find someone better...i will watch...just as aways, eye in the sky...thats what all us oracles do...
i used to like her...gradually...she was so jumpy...then...the day came...i lost my honor... i felt i could no longer love anymore...i sacrificed my honor, for something i wanted...from then on, i could receive all the honor anyone can give, and i would take none, to preserve myself...to tell myself that honor brought only ruin...i sworn to give up evil, i had to do that... embrace the light, forgo my evil pursuits of past, so that i would not be past redemption...
i sought salvation...
thats why i decided to leave kelly...thats why i decided to forgo her...sq...shuqing... no other choice...i was filled with taint, hatred beyond the wildest imagination...i could not allow that...i did not want that
there went my hope...i sacrificed my hope, hope for greed, for pleasures that werent good for me...i let them go...sacrificed...
now came my prode, the recessant of the three...honor, hope, pride...
i let it go this very day, because i realized that it was my pride that kept me up...i had to stay up, only because of my standing with gods...
i sacrificed it...
no longer was i honored for honor, hoping for hopes, pride for pride....i let them go...sacrificed them...
thats why i am here, i dont want so much...i just let them go...and, i feel a little happire, to know that i no longer would be honorable, hopeful, or full of pride...because they would pull me down to a level, where i would not want to return to..
shuqing, sorry if there were any misunderstandings...that is all...
just hope to solve them, and walk on with life...wont feel so sad...at least, let me have a smile, a thin smile crawl across my face...please...?
the evening is beautiful...i love it...the setting sun, a smile trying its best to stay on my lips...
i wanna cry now......til the end of time... let honor, hope, pride, be washed from my soul...
i want to line the pieces up...yours...and mine....
shuqing...let me be truely free...free as always...
a scattered dream thats like a far-off memory, a far-off memory thats like a scattered dream...
thats you...shuqing...of the past...hope you understand...thanks...friend...^^
light my way ♥
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birthday: 17/01/90
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think i like reading manga on the net, or just download them...music, just listen on my mp3, the ultimate isolating technology...and yes, i so wanna upgrade my stuff now...
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