well...much has happened...

she came back to me...and i wasnt prepared too! well...you could see that it was pretty difficult for me...but she was like crying and well...very sad...she wanted to die...well...i was there...

so i said i would be there for her no matter what it took, and i would do anything i could even if i could not...guess what...and now...i am at a loss...

i told her that i had to settle a few things before she could call me...actually, its easier said than done...if i am going to allow her to call me whenever, wherever, i would have to make her calls bypass everything that is in place to prevent that from happening...well...its difficult...for one, she cant txt message me, and we can only call each other...even if she calls, well...it just does not look good...but i have to do it...some how...i feel i must do it...you can call it love, or concern...anything...just cant let anything to happen to her...

in a way...i waited one year to feel the same thing as she did when i did what she is doing to me now, on her...it kind of feels wierd, but different, more of concern, not of infatuation anymore..i feel that i can do anything and can help her...i want to help her...i hate to see her so helpless...its my job...its what i like to do...

i hate sad people...

i want her to know that there is someone who really cares for her, and will be by her side when she needs it...but he also needs her support at times, and motivation...

i just hope that our relationship will be one which is helpful, helping each other instead of just infatuation...true love, not impulsive affection...thats what i feel now..

oh well...i forgot her blog url! haha...and she is nt online... oh well...

now...got bigger problems...i need to upgrade my IE7 and its getting hard, since i dont know how to fix up the cracked version...

feel so lost now......looks like i am the one who needs help? haha

she asked me if our relationship would last...i told her...if you think it will, it will...that was a wrong answer...oh well...i will tell her real soon...but i hope its not too late!

name: Jen jenocideDC.
birthday: 17/01/90
zodiac: capricorn

what do you wanna know...
hmm...okays, just read my blog
to find out what i like lol

manga art, silly stuff...jrock, jpop...bands: Asian Kung-Fu Generation(AKFG), ELLEGARDEN, Do As Infinity, HIGH and MIGHTY COLOR, Gazzette, Dir En Grey, An Cafe,many more...
think i like reading manga on the net, or just download them...music, just listen on my mp3, the ultimate isolating technology...and yes, i so wanna upgrade my stuff now...
guess thats it?

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