ima gonna have to leave my current band. i dont think the current state of things is going to solve anything. had arguements with parents, and i know arguements will persist if this goes on, and i am getting increasingly sick and tired of all the fucking bullshit. gone were he days when i could just invent any kind of bullshit like *snap* this. gone were the days where i could tolerate everything that stood my way. now, its the selfish era. i got to think for myself. i got to find out what is it that i really want. what my life is. why i am here, what was i made for. selfish questions, but i think its about time i considered anyway, being selfless sucks too.

now i was given yet another mandate to stop sourcing for bands in the internet. heck fuck do i care about it man, i will find a band, go underground, but will bid my time. cuz i have to fight my computer gaming addiction, right until i step into the polytechnics.

to Morir es Vivir members, sorry that i let you down. des wanted me out, and i left formally, at 11:30am this day. i leave because i must, and staying will pull you guys down anyway. dont want to burden you guys with my cartload of bullshit, i want to settle my ruined life a bit. next move is to have proper lessons and training, and a proper band to be with. it will be another band finding experience for me, but its the only way. hope you guys find a better drummer, and best of luck for superband 9if you guys are going at all). also want to thank you guys for having given me opportunities, and i appreciate it, and also i learnt much from you guys. a big thank you! Arigatou Gozaimasta!

back to a life where i remember vividly. no enjoyment, all conformism and bore. now i dont know whether to return to working life, but to finance my future gaming and jamming exploits, i have to consider this painful and ardeous walkway.

life's like that...i guess.......

ah, now for the technical aspect of things. this blog is going to get another makeover real soon. i just dont know what theme to base it on. but as soon as i find something that i like, i guess i will be able to make this blog look great like in the past! at least these are the only happy things i can keep myself occupied with...*sigh*

new anime coming up on arts central! rumbling hearts! wonder what it will be like. no more get backers though...so i just wanna wish them a very happy goodbye. they were awesome in entertaining me for many nights, where i would be sick with worry about band problems, and what new excuses to make just to jam.

no moire guilt, but no more fun, no more life... wonder if the price was too steep...

name: Jen jenocideDC.
birthday: 17/01/90
zodiac: capricorn

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manga art, silly stuff...jrock, jpop...bands: Asian Kung-Fu Generation(AKFG), ELLEGARDEN, Do As Infinity, HIGH and MIGHTY COLOR, Gazzette, Dir En Grey, An Cafe,many more...
think i like reading manga on the net, or just download them...music, just listen on my mp3, the ultimate isolating technology...and yes, i so wanna upgrade my stuff now...
guess thats it?

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